Sunday, September 21, 2008

“Hearts can be practical only when they are made unbreakable
It seems kind of unfair for me because I’m thinking is there any way to make our hearts unbreakable. Why is it so fragile, easy to be broken but so hard to mend? I asked myself these unrealistic questions so many times but I just can’t seem to find an answer.
Broken hearts are really hard to mend; it’s like fixing a broken mirror, the more you try to fix it, the more you might get hurt. But with the help of something or maybe someone you might fix it and make it ok again but does it mean it is ready to be broken again...after all the hardships, the hurt and the pain you’ve gone through just trying to put it back together?
If you’re going to ask me, it’s a big no for me. I’ve gone through a lot of hard time, stress either physically or emotionally just mending it and I said to myself that I will not let anyone break it again. The pain that it cause me is much painful than having a really bad headache, it lasted so long before it heals. It’s harder to endure, harder to recover.
But sometimes fate doesn’t agree with me, it made me fall in love again. I wasn’t even sure if there is someone who will catch me, but I guess im still lucky someone catch me, promise to take care of me and love me. I have fallen so deeply for him but until sometime he just got tired and just let me go, let me fall hard on the ground. I was so hurt, frustrated and disappointed. I felt so alone, I keep blaming myself for letting my heart break again. I keep asking myself what went wrong but no one hears me, no one answer me…all I can hear is the beating of my own broken heart.
In those times my friends were there for me and never let me feel that im alone and ready to help me mend my broken heart. I told to myself that the time will come that the pain will be gone totally and I can say that im ok again
But there is one thing that I proved to myself that my heart isn’t practical at all, that my heart is just like any other’s heart, BREAKABLE BUT MEND ABLE