REGRETS..

When i was in my fourth year high school, my English teacher had read us a story about a certain guy who had never told the girl he loved what he feels, he let time passed by not telling the girl until they separated ways..they met again and that time he told himself he will tell her how much he loves her but was too late, the girl was already married to another guy. He was full of regrets,even more when he learns that the girl loved him ever since but she got tired of waiting for she don't know if the guy loves her also... This story stir something in me...pity,desperation and regrets came rushing to me. I cant help to blame the guy..I can feel the regrets that he was feeling...Then realization comes in, that even I have regrets in my life.. i think of all the things that i should have done that I wasn't able to do because i don't have the courage to say or do. I think also the things that I should never done but I do because i don't think twice if is it good or bad for me.

I've experienced so many regrets in my life. Some are hard to accept, some I just don't pay too much attention.I've hard time fighting my regrets but I cant win over it. It just makes me realized how stupid I am not to do such things and not thinking the consequences or the risk.I blame other people for my mistakes but I was wrong, I was the only one to blame for it was my choice, it was my decision.

There is one thing I regret so much in my life...It is not showing how much I loved a person because I was not sure of my feelings for him at first. He puts a lot of effort in our relationship but I just don't reciprocate it in the same thing as he does, its not because I can't appreciate it but I was just afraid or too coward to express myself for I was not so sure about my feelings. He treat me so special that no one had done for me..and I love it and time passed by the uncertainty of my feelings are becoming to clear for me.i realized that i really loved him ever since for he was the only one who treated me so special,and I also realized that I never loved anyone like the way I loved him...But I guess I was too late..He got tired or maybe he just realized that its never gonna work out...I can't blame him for that, it was my fault in the first place... now i have to accept the fact that we're through...I tell myself to stop hoping that maybe all will be back like it was before..it will just hurt me even more if I still believe that there's still chance..

Acceptance is even more harder than realization. Its hard for me to accept it, because the hurt and the pain just keep pestering my heart.. I have so many questions that I can be the only one to answer..I can be the only one to blame and I said to myself that I'm so stupid to let go of him..But what can I do?..I can't turn back the time how much I wanted to, maybe i will just move on no matter how hard it is...

Regrets taught me that if I can do something I want, I should do it till I can, for I can never do it again...Say what my heart want to say, follow it and never be afraid...

I guess the next time, I would do the right thing...to never feel regrets again.